✞ we found love in a hopeless place. ✞

so I wrote my mommy a love note.
 
you treat me like shit. everything you do is so fucking shitty and I fucking hate you. you think you know everything about me but you ////don't//// you don't fucking know me at all because you don't take the time to. you just assume everything and you just have to be fucking right. you don't ever ask about me. how I am or how my fucking day was. because you don't care. you're fucking awful and I cannot fucking wait to move so so so so so so far away from you. I fucking hate you. only because you fucking hate me too.
 
I'm going to go so I can stop my useless sobbing.
be on later.

Oh man oh man oh man oh man oh mAN CAN YOU NOT.

✞She likes the boys in the band; she knows when they come to tow. Every musician’s fan after the curtains comes down. She waits at backstage doors for those who have prestige, who promise fortune and fame - a life that’s so carefree.
 
d.d. / the weeknd.
 
This song. Is sick. All of his songs. Are sick. Sick.
I would have hardcore, high sex to this song.
What?
Excuse me?
Anyway.
I had a really good day today! Did you? It's Friday! Look, you made it. I'm so proud of you. Now it's the weekend and you have absolutely nothing to worry about. Great job, beautiful.
I'm just doing some writing and listening to music, so if you wanna drop me a line, I'll happily respond.
I might rant in a minute. So expect that set. Some people are just annoying. And don't know when they're hurting people. And that's lame.
Polyvore is going really slow. I can barely type, jfc.
Okay, I'll go. I love you guys. Have a fantastic day. :)
PS, Liam's my favorite. (◡‿◡✿)
 
niall x
 
i have the stuff that you want, i am the thing that you need;
@j4n3l3vy4n0nym0u5
@jasminekittyvanon JIALLER OMG
@isabellefuhrmananonymous
@youranonymous-x0
@louiswilli4m
@z4-yn
@emm4-w4ts0n
@s3xlena-g0mez
@yourgrande
@the-alli-simpson-xo baby sisdur. ♥
@al3xgomez
@your-chachi-anon
@hyl4ndx0
@nicholasjonas come love on me.
@lanadelr3y
@p3-rrie
@taylor-ali-swift-anon taaaaaaaay, where you at.
@superm4n
@s-tyles
@isabellefuhrmananon
@yourjakeabel
@o-donnell
@f0r3v3r-y0ur-4n0ns

✞Remember how we used to party up all night? Sneaking out and looking for a taste of real life. Drinking in the small town firelight, Pabst Blue Ribbon on ice. Sweet sixteen and we had arrived, walking down the streets as they whistle, "Hi, hi!"
Stealin' police cars with the senior guys; teachers said we'd never make it out alive.
 
this is what makes us girls / lana del rey.
 
-
 
Evening, all you gorgeous ladies and gentlemen out there.
Um, I'm not supposed to be on because I got in trouble, but here I am. :3
I'm not in the best of moods, so I'd really love it if I could get a message or two, someone to cheer me up. I'd be forever grateful.
I'm pretending to do homework but really I'm doing roleplay stuff on tumblr and watching America's Next Top Model. Hate on it. x)
Okay, get at me, yeah?
 
niall x
 
and that's where the beginning of the end begun;
@j4n3l3vy4n0nym0u5
@jasminekittyvanon JIALLER OMG
@isabellefuhrmananonymous
@youranonymous-x0
@louiswilli4m
@z4-yn
@emm4-w4ts0n
@s3xlena-g0mez
@yourgrande
@the-alli-simpson-xo baby sisdur. ♥
@al3xgomez
@your-chachi-anon
@hyl4ndx0
@nicholasjonas come love on me.
@lanadelr3y
@p3-rrie
@taylor-ali-swift-anon taaaaaaaay, where you at.
@superm4n
@s-tyles
@isabellefuhrmananon
@yourjakeabel
@o-donnell
@f0r3v3r-y0ur-4n0ns

✞She’s soothing like the ocean rushing on the sand; she takes care of me, baby, and she helps me be a better man. She’s so beautiful, sometimes I stop to close my eyes. She’s exactly what I need.
 
lemonade (ukulele version) / jeremy passion.
 
Wow, you guys don’t understand how cute this song is. It gives me feels. Extreme and irrevocable feels.
 
How was everyone’s Monday? I hope it wasn’t too bad. And if it was, don’t worry. There’s still tomorrow, Wednesday, the whole week. Friday will be here before you know it. And only a couple more months of school, right? You can make it. I believe in you. You’re smart and you’re bright and you’ll make it through.
 
I have to finish drawing 36 pictures for my children’s book I had to write for my creative writing class. ): Lame, lame, lame, lame. Do you guys want me to read it to you? If you do I’ll make a set and put the story in the description. I think you guys would like it; it’s about a little superhero named Super Max who doesn’t have a power so everybody makes fun of him. But it has a happy ending! You’ll have to read it to see what happens. ;)
 
So, I’m gonna go; I got nearly 50 likes on that set I made, asking who wanted a message. I didn’t think anyone would want me to talk to them. :o I’m going to go send each and every one a message, and respond to the ones I have, okay? I love you guys, keep looking up.
 
Oh, and you should do this -> http://www.thiscrush.com/~niall3rjames okay? Thanks, you’re a doll. (◡‿◡✿)
 
Same taglist until I get the new one together because lazy. If you wanna be in it, like this set! http://www.polyvore.com/real_say_word_you_aint/set?id=78207773
 
Niall x
 
she’s my smile when I’m feelin’ blue;
@j4n3l3vy4n0nym0u5
@jasminekittyvanon JIALLER OMG
@barbarap4lvin
@youranonymous-x0
@louiswilli4m
@z4-yn
@emm4-w4ts0n
@s3xlena-g0mez
@yourgrande
@the-alli-simpson-xo baby sisdur. ♥
@al3xgomez
@your-chachi-anon
@hyl4ndx0
@nicholasjonas come love on me.
@lanadelr3y
@p3-rrie
@taylor-ali-swift-anon taaaaaaaay, where you at.
@superm4n
@s-tyles
@isabellefuhrmananon
@pr3ttyg1rlsan0ns
@o-donnell
@f0r3v3r-y0ur-4n0ns

✞Backseat serenade, dizzy hurricane; oh god, I'm sick of sleeping alone. You're salty like a summer day, kiss the sweat away to your radio. Backseat serenade, little hand grenade; oh god, I'm sick of sleeping alone. You're salty like a summer day, kiss the pain away to your radio.
 
backseat serenade / all time low ft. cassadee pope.
 
I keep getting asked this question. And if someone doesn't take the time to ask, they put me in the most awkward position possible. So yeah, I'm not in a relationship. But it didn't exact leave me feeling alright. There's room for someone else in my heart, yeah, but I don't know if I can right now. It still hurts, understand that. I'm kind of sick of feeling that pain. Unless someone's pretty fucking sensational, I'm probably gonna be empty for a while.
 
niall x

✞Do you remember summer '09?
Wanna go back there every night. Just can't lie, was the best time of my life. Lying on the beach as the sun blew out, playing this guitar by the fire too loud. Oh my, my, they could never shut us down.
 
rock me / one direction.
 

I don't know, I made some kind of template.
It's really shitty now that I filled it. But oh well. I needed something that would get me talking to new people! There's so many cool kids here and I only talk to a few. That's lame. So if you want me to drop you a message and kick off an awesome friendship, hit that little heart button. I'll send you one right away. :)
 
niall x

✞Real real, say word, you ain't never told no lie, you ain't never told no lie. Real real, stay true; you ain't never told no lie, you ain't never told no lie. That's a thing I don't do. Nah, I just do it for the niggas that are trying to see a million 'fore they die. Whaddup?"
 
no lie / 2 chainz & drake.
 
Look guys, look, I made a sim Niall. Hot right? Kind of? No? I spent hours on that shit. I'm proud of it.
So how's everyone doing today? Hopefully very well.
But, the point of this set was for you guys to like if you wanted to be in my new taglist. I really do need an official one, so I can stop tagging people that don't wanna be tagged! So do that for me, will ya? It would be much appreciated.
 
niall x
 
she think i'm the realest out, and i say "damn, that makes two of us";
@j4n3l3vy4n0nym0u5
@jasminekittyvanon JIALLER OMG
@barbarap4lvin
@youranonymous-x0
@louiswilli4m
@z4-yn
@emm4-w4ts0n
@s3xlena-g0mez
@yourgrande
@the-alli-simpson-xo baby sisdur. ♥
@ashb3nzo feel better, love.
@your-chachi-anon
@hyl4ndx0
@nicholasjonas come love on me.
@lanadelr3y
@p3-rrie
@taylor-ali-swift-anon taaaaaaaay, where you at.
@superm4n
@missarianajoananonymous
@isabellefuhrmananon
@pr3ttyg1rlsan0ns
@o-donnell
@f0r3v3r-y0ur-4n0ns

✞It's in your lips and in your kiss. It's in your touch and your fingertips. And it's in all the things and other things that make you who you are, and your eyes irresistible.
 
irresistible / one direction.
 
Evening, lads and lasses. How’s it going? I hope your Saturday was and is fantastic; you deserve it.
Hopefully this set makes up for this morning’s. I spent a really long time on this! It’s going to shift, I already know it. Blah.
So I’ve reached that point in my cold where I can’t taste. Just as I was about to destroy this muffin. My life is so unfair, guys. ):
I just want to say something to someone. Not gonna name ya, I just hope you know I’m talking to you. I think you’re really cute. You’re awkward like me and you made me feel a lot better today without even trying. So thank you for that. Keep lookin’ up. Awkward? Probably. I’m sorry.
Anyways.
AND SHE’S WATCHIN’ HIM WITH THOSE EEEEYES.
AND SHE’S LOVIN’ HIM WITH THAT BODY, I JUST KNOW IT.
AND HE’S HOLDIN HER IN HIS ARMS LATE LATE AT NIGHT.
YOU KNOW I WISH THAT I HAD JESSIE’S GIRL. I WISH THAT I HAD JESSIE’S GIRL. WHERE CAN I FIND A WOMAN LIKE THAT?
I’m going to go get more cough medicine. While I’m at it, drop me a message? I absolutely love talkin’ to you guys.
 
Niall x
 
don’t try to make me stay, or ask if I’m okay; I don’t have the answer;
@j4n3l3vy4n0nym0u5
@jasminekittyvanon JIALLER OMG
@barbarap4lvin
@youranonymous-x0
@louiswilli4m
@z4-yn
@emm4-w4ts0n
@s3xlena-g0mez
@yourgrande
@the-alli-simpson-xo baby sisdur. ♥
@ashb3nzo feel better, love.
@your-chachi-anon
@hyl4ndx0
@nicholasjonas come love on me.
@lanadelr3y
@p3-rrie
@taylor-ali-swift-anon taaaaaaaay, where you at.
@superm4n
@missarianajoananonymous
@isabellefuhrmananon
@pr3ttyg1rlsan0ns
@o-donnell
@f0r3v3r-y0ur-4n0ns

i'm so dumb. i am so fucking dumb.
i trusted you. i let you in after being closed off for so long and look what you did? look what you fucking did? you went and broke me. i'm starting to think that's all i'm good for; being broken. no matter how good something feels to me, it's all for naught. i give everything to everyone and this is what i get in return. every fucking time.
it's like hurting me come second nature to everyone. to sit and watch you be so okay, so happy without me, like you're relieved i'm gone. you promised me you would be different. you promised you'd try. silly me for believing it. and what good did trust do me? it broke my heart /again/.
maybe one day someone's going to stay. someone's going to stick it out and fight for me. someone's going to wake me up by brushing my hair out of my face and calling me beautiful or handsome or their angel or some shit. they're going to randomly surprise me and make me feel like i'm significant in this world when i know i'm not. they're going to just grab me and kiss me when i'm upset. they're not going to fucking let /go/.
i don't want to give anyone love who doesn't give it back to me.
my heart can't take that anymore.